If you’re reflecting on the year that we’re closing in on you may realize that your bible reading or studying hasn’t been what you set out for it to be. Maybe you have fallen behind or have just quit altogether. Hopefully you are planning to get right back to it in the next few days. 
If so there is probably a nagging in your mind something like this “God doesn’t want to meet with you now because you’ve snubbed him. or You’re on your own to figure this out-you’ve missed your opportunity. or What’s the use? You’ll most likely fail again.”
Those thoughts don’t mirror the God we serve. Those thoughts are condemning and go directly against the Word of God. I John 3:20 “For if our heart condemn us, God is greater than our heart, and knoweth all things.” 
Our human nature opposes God’s attributes. He is longsuffering when we are quick to give up. He is merciful when we are harsh. He is love even when we feel only disgust. 
Live by what the Word says to be true, not random thoughts.